So yesterday was my birthday. I’m 29. Usually I’m a little sad about birthdays (something about time marching on), but I’m not this year…
Maybe it’s because of this sweetness.
But actually I think it is something else, mostly… I’m 29. Which means I’m almost 30. Which means I’m 6 months away from 29.5. You know what we’re officially eligible to do once I hit 29.5?
Start paperwork for an adoption from China…
Now, to be perfectly honest, we aren’t really ready for that quite yet.
Due to this sweetness.
But, the fact that we’ll be eligible is a big deal! We aren’t sure what God’s timing is for us in the future or how things might change, but at this point, we still feel pretty strongly that our #2 kiddo will come via an airplane ride.
You know, way back before I was preggers, I got really fearful that if I had a baby I would morph into some version of myself that I didn’t recognize… someone who only cared about her own baby and who only wanted to bake cookies all day. I read a book by Kay Warren, and in it she said (I’m paraphrasing), that if God gives you a heart for your family and a heart for the world, that He’ll make a way for you to love both well, as they are both part of His heart. That really sunk in with me, and honestly gave me some of the courage I needed to say, “OK, I think I’m ready to see if we can have a wee one.”
And you know what I’m finding now?
Now that I have this sweetness in my life?
I’m finding that my heart for orphans and my heart for their mamas and daddies is growing exponentially! Sure, my attention is mostly focused on our little one right now, as it should be. But, in my heart, I’m bursting with a deeper love for the children of this world who do not have families and grieving with a greater sorrow for the families who gave them up.
So year 29? I think it is going to be a thing of beauty… and I’m excited about it. Because it is going to be filled with a whole lotta sweetness.