She just woke up. She’s swinging back and forth in her swing, chewing on her monkey’s hand. She keeps grinning at me, but she seems perfectly content to sit there a while longer. She’s four months old now (where did time go?), and I’m wanting to freeze these moments and these days. I don’t want to forget them… even the simple ones, like the quiet contentment after an afternoon nap. I’m more thankful than I thought possible for all the little joys Cora brings to my life.
We’re moving in a week. We had a whirlwind trip to Midland earlier this week, where we checked with apartment after apartment, where they told us we could move in July, August, or not at all. It’s a miracle we found anything livable available immediately. We’re suffering sticker shock, but we’re so thankful we found a place to live. Now I’m in the process of going through all of our belongings and deciding what really needs to be taken to our 650 square foot, 1 bedroom new home. The last thing we want to do is cram it so full we can’t move, but it’s hard to figure out what is really needed for our little family of three. And I do want a few touches to make it feel like a home. (They just can’t clutter.)
I have to admit, I’m both happy and sad about this move. It will be nice to end this weird “in between” time when we’ve (literally) lived out of a suitcase for three months. But it will be sad to move away from our families. It will be nice to have a place that is really “ours,” but I’m sad that it is yet another temporary dwelling. I just want to settle down a bit… I would love to make a nursery for Cora. I suppose she’ll have a nursery corner of our bedroom, but that’s not really what I had in mind. And I really want to have a garden. I suppose the upside is that with 650 square feet, I don’t have a lot to clean!
Since Cora has been born, Jacob has been with us every day. We know we have been blessed by this… what Dad gets to spend every single day with his baby? We’ve all enjoyed the time together, but now it is coming to an end. Starting on the 16th, Jacob will be going to work every day, and for the first time in my life as a mother, I will be alone with a baby all day long. I think this is going to be hard on all of us as we adjust… This is another one of those happy/sad things. I’m so thankful Jacob has a job that he thinks he will really enjoy in the field he likes, but I’m sad that this season of togetherness that we’ve had for the last 4 years is ending.